Changing Majors?

Ha, just kidding, I am about to graduate.......
Kendall has been learning about women's health and reproductive system.  He has learned what day I should be ovulating and I think this is cool for a few reasons.
1) He is learning a ton by real life situations. (his major is far more interesting than mine)
2) It is nice to know if we wanted kids soon what to look for.

This brings me to my next point....
We just celebrated our 6 year anniversary.... (favorite day of the year)
Most "mormon" couples would have had 3 kids by now.  We get asked "when are you having kids?" all of the time.  I love kids don't get me wrong.  Nothing brings me greater joy than watching my Kendall love the kids in NURSERY or our nieces and nephews.  2 things in this world terrifies me: having and raising a good person and cancer.  For obvious reasons I am scared of cancer.  Why does having and raising kids terrifies me? I think the having kids part is self explanatory, I mean Alli, Marti, Una and Adrienne have told me horrific child birth stories... taring.. needles...punching...blood.  Not to mention all of the worry, if you are keeping baby healthy inside you.  Also what about the terrifying point that so many couples face, infertility (write another post of this terrifying concept later)?  What if I cannot even have kids? All of that terrifying. Then when you have the beautiful little Angel in your arms and you are instantly in love with this wrinkly little recipe of you and your love, everything will be perfect.  Then you have to go somewhere....terrifying to get in the car, what if you get into an accident with this Angel that was sent to you to protect.  What if you don't get that "motherly instinct"? What if you accidentally forget to strap Angel into the seat because you are distracted? What if you make the smallest stupidest mistake and something happens to the Angel? Are you able to give Angel all that they need? You are suppose to be the protector?  Then Angel grows and crawls and brings great joy.  Then Angel is 2 and so naughty and you have to do even more to protect them? What do you give them of the things they want so they don't become spoiled little brats?  Then Angel is 4 and talks back, you try to have patience, then you realize Angel is never not going to be little again and talking back is going to be a normal occurrence.  Angel is now 13 and you don't know anything about life, especially when you try to tell Angel about it.  Angel gets their own car and you worry while they are away with friends.  You try to be the cool mom, but Angel still doesn't listen. Angel is now 18 and if they are not like you and more like your love they will be on to life such as military, mission or college.  How do you know you did a good enough job raising Angel, and that they know how to live the life they refused to listen to you about.  Terrifying.

Perhaps when Kendall is done with all of his school and has a good job I will evaluate this terrifying list  and consider a Kendall Junior. In the mean time I will love my calling loving other people's children.  :)